Ramblings

A few of my family friends are doing the Color Run in Austin. I am jealous. I wanted to sign up but no one wanted to do it with me. And now it’s too late. Sad smile Who wants to do it with me next time? I will supply you your white tee!

I’ve been eating three meals a day instead of one. Cleaning out the fridge. Not wasting money. Feels gooooood. I wish I had someone to cook for though. I need a man with a stomach who loves to eat and try new things. He can complain how disgusting it tastes as long as he finishes his plate. Winking smile

A friend of mine always writes about a boy she wants to get with on her Facebook statuses … which annoys me because it doesn’t make her look good and she’s a really nice girl. Especially when other guys find her attractive, but then they see that and get turned off. I don’t understand girls nowadays.

I’ve been told I have to put myself out there more but no matter how I try, it’s not me. I’ll always be the girl with the wall up until the guy breaks the wall down. Might take a while, but that’s when you know the guy is worthwhile.

When I see you.
When I converse with you.
My days are complete.
But it never seems to be enough.
I’m happy if you’re happy.
That’s all I can hope for.

Car Shopping

I set out to Houston bright and early and throughout the whole 3 hour car ride all by my lonely self, I cried.

I started thinking about Eric’s Mum … leading me to think of Uncle N. and how he’ll never see me do all the things I’ve grown up to do. I always tell myself it’s a privilege to be alive. To have so many people in and out of my life. People who love tolerate me and my issues.

I cried because I was sad that there are so many people who I wish was still in my life but I also cried because I was happy that there are so many people who are still here for me and I know will never leave.

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Onto happier news. I played around with Rocky, showered, then headed out for a 7 hour car shopping experience. Car Shopping = Boring! We ended up buying a brand new SUV which was actually my 3rd choice. It’s not a well known brand but it gets me from place to place.

I’m slowly falling in love with it. I got to drive it to Sugar Land to see family since it’s a new year. I cannot wait to have it all to myself. Till then, it’ll stay at home so that it gets a good mileage and an oil change before I do long drives.

I got to eat dinner with the parentals, June, Sissy, and Uncle G. It was fun and I am happy I made my way down here even though this Houston trip only equals to less than 24 hours.

Love Life.

I’ve known him for five years. The first day we met, he was able to share with me a secret: his Mum has cancer. For someone who’s going through with a lot, he stays strong. I look up to him. Someone who puts himself through school and helps out around the house. All while keeping positive and never giving up on anything.

His Mum past away last week but now she’s no longer in pain. She’s free. And I know she has left a mark in everyone’s hearts that she has touched.

Eric, though I was never formally introduced to your Mum, everyone always said the best things about her to the point where I felt like I knew her. Always know I’m there for you and your family. I am always here with a shoulder to lean on, ears to listen to your words, and a heart that will forever love you and all that you do. You’ve inspired me in ways that I cannot explain. You have been an amazing friend to me and all I can do is be there for you in this time of need. My thoughts go to you and your family.

Vulnerability

Last night I went out with Andrew C. and Billy and it was amazing. Only because I got to see so many other people that we didn’t even know was going to be at Wild West. It was one of the best nights I’ve had.

But I also made a bet that I wouldn’t talk to Andrew C. from Friday (today) till Sunday. So far, so good. Only because he really did hurt my feelings from something he said. Joke or not. Drunk or not.

Note to self: Do not drink the day before Vocals class.

Today in Leadership Challenge class we went around in a circle and said what that person has been blessed with a gift. Things like that person has: heart, courage, emotions, that they: care, love, give, never take, etc. It was one of the best lessons. I learned a lot about how people see me and how others see one another.

I’ve always been a vulnerable person but to show it, that’s a weakness and so I try my best not to cry or show I care. But no matter how much of the tough girl act I show, they can see right through me and they find me crumbling in the palm of their hands during that class.

I. Cry. Like. A. Baby.

A group of us went out to eat afterward and it was just so wonderful to be in their presence. To know that together we are stronger.

Heartaches and mistakes,
How many hits can a good girl take?
I’m tired of hurting, slowly learning.
Irate you’re too late.
Look at the mess that you’ve created.
♥ He Is We

Rain, Rain, Go Away

The weather outside is frightful. At least, it sounds frightful. I’ve been hating on the rain because I hate having to walk in it and end up soaking wet and cold while I’m sitting in class. And now that I have to lug my guitar every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, it would be nice of Mother Nature not to torture me.

When I made my schedule for my classes this semester, I thought I would have a lot of down time to do things I’ve always wanted to do but never got to … like my social life. It’s non-existent still, thanks to FTK. But I’m hoping I can change that soon. FSA is about to start up again and practices and stuff will begin. I’m excited. Just hope I can do it all.

I just read through 500+ blog posts on Google Reader. I’m sure you understand if you did not receive a comment or something. I enjoyed all the posts though and hate that it takes me forever to get to them.

I’ve made my breakfast, lunch, and dinner for tomorrow. Is it terrible that I wished it was already tomorrow at those times so that I could chow down? No? Good.

You should all listen to the “He Is We” station on Spotify. I am in love with it!

Hope hump day goes well for you all. I will be in school for a long, long time. Eeep!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Yesterday was my brother’s last day being in town. We went and ate lunch at Longhorn Steakhouse – recap on the food on a later post! Then we went home and just chilled a bit before he had to leave.

I then met up with some FTKers and we went to another FTKer’s house to film a video! We will show you the video when it’s done. It’ll be epic. … I hate that word but it works. Open-mouthed smile

And finally! It’s Chinese New Year! Year of the Dragon! It’s going to be a long day for me but I hope it will be a good day.

I hope you have a blessed Monday! Open-mouthed smile

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I admit I’ve been slacking with the Google Reader.

It’s just so amazing having the brother in the same place! Smile

We woke up, ate at Taqueria Data Point, then went home and they all took a nap while I did homework. (I’m a good girl …)

Then we made plans to celebrate Chinese New Years early since the brother was leaving Sunday. So we went to eat a Kim Wah Chinese BBQ then went to Wal-Mart to buy goodies before watching The Underworld.

The movie was amazing. Go see it!! NOW!! The ending kind of pissed me off though.

We then went home and got ready to go to Area 31. Then we went to Wish.

Pretty long day but it was great. I love it.

And the night’s not over.

Can’t wait to see what tomorrow has in store for us!

Brutha!

I had my first Friday filled with school yesterday. It was horrific in some ways but great in others.

Guitar class. Vocal class. Leadership Challenge class. Meetings filled with FTK work. In the end, I was at school from 8am – 6:30pm.

Ridiculous. But somewhere deep inside, I loved it because I know that I’ll never get a chance to do what I love (FTK) again once I graduate.

I hauled ass out of there to shower. Then waited until my brother got into town!! Smile And headed out to meet Andrew, Paul, Jakob and their friends at Flying Saucer. Had some laughs with some beers then headed to the Cantina for more. Billy showed up and we scouted boys and talked about life and boys … it was fun. The other boys played pool and drank.

In the end, it was only Andrew, Billy, and I and we talked about various things then went and got taco’s at the taco truck right outside. Freak of nature delicious. No pictures though. I devoured them before there was a chance! Smile Sadly, I heard they were moving to another location because the landowners are assholes. Boo.

I hope you all have a good weekend! I get to spend it with the brother! Open-mouthed smile

Brother Bear!

Thanks for all the nice words y’all left about my last post! You guys are truly amazing. Smile

I got to see my Brother Bear, Travis, tonight. He came over and we finally got to catch up. It’s always nice to talk to him. We don’t see each other a lot, but we’re able to do deep talks to one another about life and things that go on when we do see each other. He’s been in my life for over a year and a half and he’s always been there for me so I was finally able to share with him something that was life changing to me and it felt good doing so. He was understanding and nice about it and even tried to teach me ways stop it from happening again. He’s a really great friend, and I’m so happy he’s in my life.

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I made dinner! It looks gross but I promise you, it was delicious! Creamy tomato soup, chicken breast, and broccoli, on jasmine rice. I pretty much just stuck the first three ingredients together and boiled it until the chicken was cooked. Then put it on the rice. Easy and yummy! Open-mouthed smile

Tomorrow’s Friday … which means a very busy day for me! I won’t be able to go home until after 6pm every Friday. Someone save me!

Think Good Thoughts: Being Alive

My dad was in a car accident Tuesday. The car is totaled but that’s okay because he’s okay. He’s up and about so I’m not worried. I don’t know how I would react if something actually happened to him. I am thankful he is alive and well and that I can still speak to him.

I am thankful that five friends that were in accidents today are okay and well. They were all separate occasions at different places in Texas. Please drive safe guys. I don’t want to lose anyone anymore.

I am thankful for those I’ve met in FTK. Obviously there are sometimes people you cannot get along with or they are just horrible people that you don’t want to associate yourself with them. But luckily I’ve found some keepers that I would want in my life forever. Even when I graduate. Hopefully that does happen because we all know how terrible I am at keeping in touch when my life gets busy.

There are only a few people I still keep in touch with in FSA. I am thankful for them because they know me even though I’m not there. I cannot wait until sport practices start and dance practices start. I cannot wait to see everyone.

I wouldn’t be who I am today without some of these people in my life. I am thankful for the life I live for at any second, it can be taken away. With everything that goes on around us, we forget that living is a privilege.