I Don’t Fit In – Emotional-ish Post

I love my job. My BossMan is awesome. Let me tell you why.

I feel grown up because I get to go to my first ever business trip in Janurary! It’s only at New Orleans for two days but what the hay! I get to not be in the office for two whole days! … and be in other people’s office and learn.

And if you didn’t know, I’m a contractor so we’re switching contractor companies so we can get better benefits. Win! Maybe a raise? 😉 But I highly doubt it since I only started a few months ago.

But okay here goes … I never really talk about stuff like this on my blog because I don’t like showing that I’m insecure. But we’re only human right? If you can help a sister out, mucho thanks.

I finally opened up to Mum about my unhappiness at my job. I mean, I love it obviously with how I praised about stuff up above but sometimes I feel very out of place. Like I don’t fit in. I bring my lunch to work every day because I cannot afford to buy every meal. They pay us really, really well but I have things that are more important then that. I sit at my desk and work and talk to no one unless they come to me. I don’t like butting into people’s business so if they have powwows I will only join if I was invited. I guess this makes me not a people person or that I don’t like to talk which is weird because I love to talk to people. Well, more like listen. When my friends or family ask how I like my job, my answer is almost always, “It’s good”, because how can I say, “Meh, it could be better.” I don’t like being asked things so the simpler the answer the better. I am hoping after this trip, I can feel like I fit in more. Maybe this is all in my head but who knows …

If you’ve gone through this before, give me some pointers. Please and thank you.

Watch this. It will melt your heart. Her dad passed away before her wedding so the important men in her life wanted to do something special for her for her wedding day.

Bride’s Special Dance from LaFrance Films on Vimeo.

If you didn’t get at least teary eyed, you’re not human. We can’t be friends anymore.

Anyway, help me with my dilemma if you can.